STULTIFERA NAVIS
Direção: José Manuel
Grupo de Atores do Hospital Psiquiátrico da Tamarineira
Teatro Arraial
I saw myself, at the Arraial´s Theater, in a boat of Calderon, of dreams and storms pregnant of all sea Greek hopes, boat
of egyptian ones and Sta Cecília Meireles. Boat of all journeys and Easters.
In all, helmsmen or crows
of Poe, they recite poems: I do not remember, I forgot.
This is an essential theater.
A handful of being weakened,
a gigantic thunder of catastrophe, an immense downpour of purgation and death;
and an end without end. Because nights do they always recommence when the blood
stop flowing in the vein of a prisoner, which was killed,
in that right night, in that right act....
While seeing that one, I
talk to myself, like two other worried actors of the group that shouted: "
I do not want to see any more theater ”. I saw already, I think,
almost the essential thing. Even being the esential, always, so far from our
eyes.
Therefore, I ´ll stop
writing here. Therefore my text ran around, today and here, in so many dunes.
But I still have the honor, before all, to set foth my belief and creed:Sirs,
I hate that lull, that calm that here sets up: it is
fear; and I hate that hushed up voice, be in mental hospitals, classrooms,
Columns.
That is it.
They were 10. 3 escaped. 2
did not want to do any more theater for anything. The 5
others remained in a gigantic boat. Where they said texts
on courses of the life, like the one who declares love.
They ask for where we go,
and more: is it better? And, I do not know, I
forgot – the Helmsman answers them.
Then they sing
their nocturnal wakefulness. Those hulks sing gently ox, ox
of the black face, rambling, hell-sailors, through a night
of storms.
Oh they find the most
tremendous storm never felt before in a theater, of majestic crash, liters and
liters of water played up of the orchestra.
Oh fuckingjesus, you are
the Neptune itself, oh Norman!
And then, amid the violent storm, they die!
And how could not they die,
if we are such
stuff as dreams are made on, and our little life is merely rounded
with a sleep?
At last, there the Helmsman comes.
With little wings, and they stay all together,
yet without knowing if there- where they would have arrived- it was
or not, a better world.
They sing then to me.
And all the
magic of centuries of theater recovers in a minute, in 5 voices tuned in Gonzaguinha, to
live is that it will not be ashamed of being happy, singing and singing and
singing the beauty of being an eternal apprentice, larala...
Then the gods went down and gave us cockle-boats of paper!
In the talks after the
curtain´s fall, one of them said to have written 14 pages for theater,
and more: it would be a success!- he said. Other
asserted he made a contract to sing a little more than the others comediants
and immediately begin to sing a song for us.
It was that what happened.
So few gestures.
So few words.
So few images.
Almost the essential thing.
Since it is, the essential thing is always also: only.
Almost only.
And then, oh Lord of the Worried Ones, the audience falls down in
crying.
Roberto Carlos –
helmsman of the glorious Federation of Theater of Pernambuco -
bursts into tears.
Rodrigo hides his face
wetted in wide weeping, Leidson gushes two meters of pure fit of crying and J.
Manoel in buáhs is devastated. Polly, like child crying. The
psychiatrist behind me forgets Freud and cry. The director cries. And I
- that I cry up just seeing commercials of shampoo - I was, villain, just a
one-eyed crier. And how couldn´t I do it if I, that write in this
door of bathroom, am just a philosopher so shallow as a flattest
half bowl?
We were 7 little kitten, butchered in a rodriguean text.
I stayed so little sized, look, in face
of the secular one and desperately distant solidarity of Norman, of José Manoel,
of Willians Santana, of Valdir Nunes,
of Neemias Duarte. Demented helmsmen, guiding the gods who
made us, in that little night, return to the most legitimate origin of the
theater. They, the gods, are the prisoners Aldo Emídio, Claudemir Coelho, Fabiano Rodrigues, José Amaury Héráclito
Nascimento, Inaldo Pires, Israel Alves, João Alexandre e Manoel
Narciso.
Two of those left us
talking to nobody, and a third one had the intuition – I'm getting
impregnated, he said-that everything not worth twice. And
said calmly: I will make theater never again! Margueritte Duras had told me the
same lapidary phrase in a summer rain: not worth it. Repeat
the essential, not worth it!
So we are now,
with me, 4 turncoats of these nights of so many stars!
The boat, now, is this ephemeris of the
roses, because we don't note flowers, said the geographer to Little Prince.
The boat, now, is this providential fall of sparrows that
challenged the omens.
Because, ladies and gentlemen, if it be now, ´tis not to come; if it be not
to come,it will be now; if it be not now, yet it will come: the readiness is
all; since no man has aught of what he leaves. What is´t to live betimes?
The rest is silence.
To die is silence.
And inside this silence
some day will be
me, you, Hamlet & Shakespeare.
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